That my biggest desire in life is to raise a big family and have lots of children

Where I am and where I need to get to

That only I can make this right, even if I don’t much like it

My flaws, my quirks, my weirdness

My passion, my personality, my drive, my determination and motivation

I am me and that is all I can and will ever be

There are regrets and shame in my past

That loving myself and accepting myself is the key to recovery

That frustration is sometimes a good thing, a sign of hope

That until I accept myself, no one else will be able to

That there is more to me than a body

That I have charisma, wittiness and an outgoing personality

That I tend to hide under a nervous energy to get by

That food is essentially the only thing that will provide me with what I need

That I know how to gain weight

That I need to gain weight

That I am missing out on life

That this is incredibly hard

That my body and I do not see eye to eye with each other in the mirror

That staying away from the mirror is a good idea

That throwing out my scale was a good idea

That I do not need to deserve or earn food

That I do not have to be hungry to eat

That people worry about me

The many tears I have shed and will shed through weight gain

That my mind does not run correctly

That I do not need to believe everything I think

That food will restore my fertility

That I am gaining weight

That I have gained weight

That I can eat and function easily but eating to gain is a whole new ball field

That weight gain is part of finding myself and my life again

That people will tell me they are envious of my body and figure but accept they have a distorted image of health

That people will tell me I look great because they have no idea

That I feel lost, bothered, confused and scared

That I am determined to get well

That I have been blessed with amazing friends

That my parents will never ever understand me, and I should stop trying to prove myself to them

That pursuing weight gain means people are going to shove crackers, cake, fries, and ice cream at me all the time

That I need to take time out to breathe and relax or stretch when I get overwhelmed

That my friends may be better support to turn to than my parents

That my parents are loving and caring, but are scared and frustrated with me

I accept…that I am committed to feeling good again, to getting better, and to actively gain weight.

I am learning to accept my self worth, build self confidence, and full self acceptance.

 Where you are and what you are right now has to be made right, even if you don’t like it that much. Nevertheless, it is you. By criticizing and negating the current circumstances, what you are saying is that you are not okay. What is around you is only an extension of who you are. Look at those things and realize that they are what they are, imperfect though they may be. By accepting the truth, you propel yourself into better circumstances. By resisting, you live in the constant negativity of your own dissatisfaction. Accept everything about yourself–I mean everything. You are you and that is the beginning and the end–no apologies, no regrets. Once we accept ourselves, it doesn’t matter what we do. You must be adventurous and daring to accept yourself as a bundle of possibilities and undertake the most interesting game in the world, making the most of your best. When you’re a beautiful person on the inside, there is nothing in the world that can change that about you. Jealousy is the result of one’s lack of self-confidence, self-worth, and self-acceptance. The Lesson: If you can’t accept yourself, then certainly no one else will. Only by acceptance of the past, can you alter it. Self-acceptance comes from meeting life’s challenges vigorously. Don’t numb yourself to your trials and difficulties, nor build mental walls to exclude pain from your life. You will find peace not by trying to escape your problems, but by confronting them courageously. You will find peace not in denial, but in victory. Acceptance of one’s life has nothing to do with resignation; it does not mean running away from the struggle. On the contrary, it means accepting it as it comes, with all the handicaps of heredity, of suffering, of psychological complexes and injustices. Let go of what you think life should be so you can experience the life you have. You can succeed if nobody else believes it, but you will never succeed if you don’t believe in yourself. Your problem is you’re… too busy holding onto your unworthiness.

The more I repeat “I ACCEPT” to myself, the more I am able to believe it and make changes. Seriously, it is really working.  Accept it because you need the determination.  Accept it because you need to have the will to get better.